I’m 22, zero students otherwise good boyfriend and you will I am disheartened but happy

I’m 22, zero students otherwise good boyfriend and you will I am disheartened but happy ..can’t determine. Men just like me however the matter try I favor no1, Lol…struggling with a bad previous relationships. You hitched which have 4 students but still disheartened/disappointed…………………………..What’s contentment up com